That Bile You Call a Heart

Well the dog ate something in the house and now it's stuck in her nose or her throat and who knows what it is, but she's outside yacking and snorting and my parents are argueing over whose fault it is. Mom was quick to throw the blame on me because I let her in the house. And Dad was searching the floor of my room to try and figure out what it was. It's NOT my fault any one of us lets her in the house on any given day and Dad's NOT going to find whatever it was she ate because obviously it's in her throat and not on the floor anymore. My poor puppy is out hacking up something and Mom and Dad are arguing over placing blame versus finding out what IT is.

Why are people like that? The first to place blame as far away from them as possible. It's like she was somewhat evilly glad that something happened to the dog on my watch because then the dog won't be inside bugging her and she can blame me once again for killing of the house hold pet. This makes me angrier than God on judgment day. I WAS NOT AT FAULT FOR THE DEATH OF OUR FIRST DOG. The stupid Blame Game can shove it if you ask me. And second of all if you go the round about way of blame like Mom does, I might as well be guilty of harboring terrorists as well as crashing her computer while I'm in the other room.

Mom was the kind of mom who claimed that inanimate objects didn't just grow legs and walk away, or that the Ghost must have done it since neither I or my brother would fess up. It was either you did it and your lying or your lying and your guilty, Cuz MOM always knows! But seriously, I think Mom's DON'T know. She justs assumes I did it. Assumption was the first chapter in the Mom handbook and then it grew legs and walked away and forever she's believed that I stole her book. When seriously it grew legs and walked away!

Now she's outside assessing the damage I did to the dog. As if I found some harmful object and stuffed it down her throat while no one was looking, because that's just the type of thing a guilty person would do and deny blame for later. But she knew that this would happen and assuaged herself of all (guilt) blame right when she heard something has happened to the dog.

IT'S LORI'S FAULT! SHE LET THE DOG IN, THEREFOR SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO WATCH THE DOG AND SHE DIDN'T AND NOW SOMETHINGS WRONG WITH THE DOG, THEREFOR SHE DID IT!

Reminds me oddly of our justice system with all of these theorems and equasions (why does that look like its spelled wrong?) THIS AND THIS HAPPENED RESULTING IN THIS, THEREFORE.....Some stupid assumption based on probability which is rather the same thing as ODD's of winning the lotto or the next poker hand. A bunch of CRAP.

So you can all go and stuff your PROABILITY and your so-called LOGICAL thinking that DEDUCES the answers, up your butts! You'r not a detective, there aren't any clues, get off your high horse, and try to find your heart. It's somewhere in that sack of bile all misconstrued and mangled and generally just fucked up.

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