Interview Results

Well, my strange gut feeling about the strange company without a website or specific company information, was confirmed to be a good gut feeling, because indeed they are what I surmised: Sales men. Not door to door, but company door to door. Say no to residence sales, but YES to Solicitation.

I got to job shadow one guy. He was incredibly nice and I hated to break his heart after a couple hours of dumb questions (by me) hoping there was something better, but realising not, that seriously, please take me back to my car, I really don't want to do this. He wanted a reason. He asked why. He said I had potential. He tried his hardest. It was fun with him I'll admit, because he was such a nice guy, but once they send me out by myself and I have to go face rejection of the No Solicitors company policies and many smiling faces saying, I'm sorry, NO. And of course saying the same thing over and over. Although the exersize was nice, not sitting down all day. What could I say but no? No! I can't do it. I know I'm the perfect type of person to sucker into hiring. I've been suckered into buying things. People can definitely convince me of things, when I decided to say no earlier, but then later wonder why I said yes when I sit down to think about things. What would I think on thursday when I have to wake up and put on my nice clothes to go into companies and ask if they want to buy office supplies from me? Nothing ! And they wanted a reason. A reason why I could turn down such a great offer. Yeah it's scary, we know, they say. But one day I'll manage my own people who have to go out and sell crap. Is this the face of our buying and selling future? Maybe for big business. But couldn't the same thing be accomplished with telemarketing? Isn't it the same brutal annoyance of someone coming into your place of work to get you to believe what they believe? and I don't think that way. After the woman would say, no thankyou we already--he wouldn't stop. There were more questions he had to ask. To find a weakness. Only the real bold ones wouldn't let him in the door or wouldn't let him ask anything at all. They had it rehearsed: I'm-sorry-we-have-a-supplier-we-dont-want-to-change-thankyou-and-good-luck-and-good-bye! slam...

So I regretfully declined and they made me feel like it was my own loss, but on the way home when I felt a stab of pain and guilt, like maybe I did waste a perfect chance to get ahead in life, i screamed in the voice of reason: THEY ARE SELLING SERVICES DOOR TO DOOR! THEY ARE SALES MEN! THEY ARE SOLICITORS (even though they say they are not, that solicitors are handling money selling at the door they are just advertising door to door) I WILL NOT DO IT. I CANNOT. THERE MUST BE SOMETHING BETTER THAT I CAN TRULLY LOVE AND WORK AT WITHOUT BEING EXPLOITED OR USED OR WHATEVER. AND I DONT CARE ABOUT THE MONEY IF I REALLY DONT LIKE THE JOB. I WILL NOT BE SOLD. And so I got away from them. And now that is that. Tomorrow I will return to my day job that entails sitting on my ass for hours at a time doing the same crap over and over. Someone help me!

but atleast I'm not a sales man.

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