Give Blood.

I was looking forward to this all week. Donating blood! Woohoo stick it to the man! (nevermind) Give because I care! I really do care. And I was nervous because maybe something will go wrong. Maybe I don't have enough blood. What if I faint?

I DON'T HAVE VEINS!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS was precisely the problem like 5 years ago when I tried to donate and couldn't give quite enough blood. My veins collapsed. "You need to drink a lot of water next time." They told me. Yes. Drink water. Check.

You know what? I do drink water! I drank like 40 ounces today. But then I had to go to the bathroom and there it all went. Out. And so they assumed I hadn't drank any water. Damn it. This time they wouldn't even stick their needles in me. Ne veins. I have no veins. It's amazing theres blood in me. It's amazing my heart beats, there being no blood in me and all... >:(

Fine. I won't give blood. Because I CAN'T give blood. It was embarrassing too. All that time, the wait, the questionaire, the paper work, for what? Nothing. Why can't they just take blood from someother vein somewhere else? Like my jugular. I know there's a lot of blood there. My jugular vein wouldn't collapse. If it did then I'd die or something worse. I can't take intravenus drugs. I know this, for they've tried. This should've been a clue...When I'm in dire need of intraveinous something, and I have no veins, what do they do? Do I just die? Oh well, no veins, we tried. I bet I also have some weird type of blood. E negative or something no one else has. Ugh.

At least I tried.

Again.

And failed.

All you people who have regular veins, but your (sissy voice) Afraid of needles or fainting of WHATEVER, that is no excuse. Ya'll are just lazy.

Oh yeah and I went to go pick up my bridesmaid dress for my friend's wedding...(Shhhh, down low) And it wasn't there! Where is it? It's at the dry cleaners. Why the HELL is it at the dry cleaners???? I am not paying for that bill. I did not authorize this? What the hell? Oh, it got some chalk and grease on it form the sewing...Come back tomorrow morning.

!!!

I was nice about it because I didn't really want to deal with anything and I'm just so darn push-over-y. I should've blown up at her and yelled SMALL CLAIMS COURT and not pay the bill or something...Shouldve but I really didn't care. She said tomorrow. I don't pay the bill for the dry cleaning.

But Mom says it will stink, I'll have to wear a stinky dress and what if it s ruined? What if, yeah, WHAT IF IT's SMALLER?? This could be disastrous. I'd hate to call my friend and say, yeah I spent all this money on every thing for you but at the last moment I took it to this crumb drum place and they ruined it. Sorry, I have to go to court instead of your wedding.

I would be so mad, I would just want to go home and sleep it away and pretend it never happened. Yeah, I'm such a fighter. You know the five F's of whatever? FIGHT FLIGHT FREEZE FOOD FUCK. They need to add and H for Hibernate. Wussy hibernation. I guess Flight could cover that aspect though.

We will see how this all turns out, won't we?

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